Within a blink of an eye it is now already the end of March of 2021. How the weeks and months flew by was beyond me. But it has definitely been one helluva roller coaster right for these last 3 months. So much as happened that I feel somewhat bad for not even chronicling them down!
2021 has been a rather peculiar year. It’s turning out to be not quite what one would expect. As a newly minted Senior Manager, while I am grateful for the promotion, I found myself borrowing more in….a very unusual place…my family. I didnt really think I would focus so much on my family, given everything that everything that has happened, and yet here I find myself, in the 3rd month of the year, mulling, ruminating and deeply in frequent reflections of the state of my family
I suppose you could say it all started this year with the wifey’s fertility health, which was a continuation from late last year. Our second miscarriage in August fueled Mommy to find answers as to what was going on with her. I did my best to be supportive as a means of not only also seeking answers, but also in being in solidarity and supporting my wife in this journey.
Her discovery led her to FertilityCare, which is based on NAPRO Technology that promotes natural fertility care treatment which has a direct consequence of enabling one to conceive and sustain the pregnancy.
We started our journey in September, and by October we embarked on our “charting” adventure. The day-to-day charting, though at times mundane gave us an opportunity to connect and discuss on the wifey’s fertility which I felt was a good start to me understanding what’s going on with my wife’s hormones and cycles.
Anyway fast forward 4 months later, armed with enough data and plenty of blood tests, we discovered that the wifey was having high prolactin levels which could also be a tell-tale sign of why her other reproductive hormones were not doing what they were supposed to do. The charting helped us to establish some base pattern for her cycle and with that, together with the blood tests, we were advised to treat the high prolactin levels.
What happens after that was a roller coaster of emotions – from deducing that the wifey had high level of prolactins, she was sent for a MRI as the Specialist suspected that could be a tumour growing in her brain that could be causing this unusally high prolactin levels.
Imagine the horror and worry in our minds and hearts! Brain tumour? MRI? Most people in their 30s do not think of such things – many are worried about starting a home, finding a partner, having children, climbing in their careers – but no one worries about having a brain tumour!
And so on 16th of Feb, we went for wifey’s brain scan. I honestly didnt know what to make of it – but all I could remember was mom. Mum in the University Hospital, going through batteries of test, being wheeled around in a wheelchair from her bed to the chemo center for chemotherapy. It was just one activity after another, with little thought to process. Who knows what would they find in the scans? Wifey was often complaining about headaches – would they find another tumour? And if there’s another tumour, what next? Our family was still so young, what could we do? What could I do?
These thoughts haunted me while I steadily tried my best to accompany wifey during this period. I can’t imagine how scary it would have been for her – soon after the MRI scan, the next part would be the dreadful waiting period which wouldn’t come for another 5 days when we would see the Specialist again.
This entry continues on in Part 2.
