Lately over the last couple of days, I’ve been thinking alot about Mum. These thoughts tend to run through my mind when I’m walking back from the train station, or when I reach my room and I look at mum’s portrait on my desk. Yes I guess I’m really missing mum. The fact that she’s no longer around in some ways… scares me!
It scares me in a way because for once, I don’t have to be accountable to anyone. Yes, as much as I am an adult, my growing years into adulthood was somewhat much influence by mum. She was there to call me the first day I started work at Big Blue. She consoled me when I told her I couldn’t do IT because it was just too tough for me. She consoled me when I told her I wanted to quit my IT job at Big Blue by dispensing good motherly advice.
Now that she’s gone, I feel that I don’t have to be accountable anymore. I can do whatever I want, I can quit when the going gets tough, something I could not do (and rightly so!) in the past because mum was always there to dish out practical advice to her young child who was grappling in the adult working world.
And right now, I miss that. I miss her sage-like advice, her motherly affection, her constant assurance. I miss all of those…
To all of you who have mothers…. you guys are so lucky to still have them around…
On a short side note, I will be away for the weekend. Will be spending All Saints and Souls Day with Dad. It’s also about time I returned home!
