To go public…or not?

There’s a good reason why I decided to close my former blog… the issue of privacy. I guess in some ways it was different when I first launched my “blogging career”. Back then, things were… innocent, the last thing you cared about was someone prying into your privacy. I wasn’t that much afraid of someone trying to find out who the heck I was.

But that all changed when I came back here to begin my real “career” (i.e – join the adult world of working). Suddenly I felt restricted, I felt I couldn’t blog as freely as I wanted to. I always had that “what if” mentality ; – what if someone from work found my blog? How would that make me feel? Will it make me feel comfortable? – what if my very own colleagues decide to do a google search on me? Would I want that? Granted the fact that I began my career in an IT firm didn’t really help – EVERYONE is computer literate, and everyone knows the power of Google. Weighing all those thoughts, and add to the fact that work WAS indeed getting more hectic and demanding (I still feel this is a lame excuse for not keeping the writing consistency) I felt maybe it’s best I closed my blog and just move on.

But truth to be told, I do miss blogging, because for me, when I stopped blogging, I hardly visited other blogs at the same time. I guess this in some ways is a natural response perhaps? But I did miss blogging. I did miss reading what’s going on in the blogosphere and I did miss penning my own thoughts down.

I will admit I haven’t done a good job at all with maintaining this new blog of mine.  But I’m trying to keep constant at it. I’m trying to make it a habit to at least write something down 2-3 times a week, I know that some of you subscribe to the whole “don’t blog if you don’t feel like it, don’t blog for the sake of blogging” philosophy and I duly respect your opinions and beliefs on this. But for me I’m blogging for reasons beyond just the sake of blogging; I still have ambitions to improve my writing flair and for me personally, the way to go about it is to just keep on and it. Keep writing and writing and writing. It helps me in improving my ability to crystallize my thoughts as well.

Up until now I’ve kept this blog pretty much undercover. Only a few close friends are aware of my blogging existence, and it’s nice to some degree to have that low profile exclusivity. But on the other hand, keeping it limited would mean the crowd would be limited as well. Not to say I intend to blog for the audience. My stand on that issue is perfectly clear. Rather it’s the thought of whether I want to promote my blog? Why on earth would I want to promote my blog? Well maybe…sometimes I guess it’s nice to have more people around… but I fear that I might risk losing my privacy again…. hmm maybe I should sleep on it a couple more days and then decide whether I want to publicize my quiet-little diary…