So now you know who I am into, you gotta tell me yours! She quipped, finally breaking the silence that encapsulated us for a good 2-3 minutes. I gulped as I tried to regain my composure.
She’s always like that – blunt, straight to the point, no beating around the bush. So what do I tell her. I mean how was I to say ‘yes I am into someone too, and that person is you’.
I had no plans to tell her up until now. I felt I needed more time to analyze and gain perspective on this journey titled ‘Romance’. The last time I threaded down that road was more than a year ago. And this time, I was going to pursue a church gal, a catholic girl, a girl whom I have known for sometime as a wonderful friend.
After finally playin g the guessing game, (heh I think this was the first time she went around the bush!) she finally and reluctantly came to the conclusion that I was interested in her.
I guess the reluctancy in her face said it all. My dream of receiving a reciprocal feeling had taken a nosedive. She wasn’t interested. She was more interested in her Man, who knew very little of her existence, but she had physical attraction based feelings for me.
Throughout our shopping (yes, after hearing the Truth) we had to go and check something out. You could imagine the mood between the two of us – she confused but trying to bring normalcy into the conversation. Me – feeling like a total loser for being rejected by Love. Rejected love is painful and it dug deep into my heart as time went by
Finally after we had completed my task, I decided I could no longer hold this bleeding heart of mine. I had to let her know, we had to talk it out. I wasn’t going to give up on Beauty as I had done in, the past.
I finally poured out my heart to her over coffee at a Starbucks outlet. It was painful but I just didn’t want to hold it back. I had afterall nothing to lose. She listened attentively, occasionally nodding her head. Probably that’s the first time I saw her in such a contemplative state in a non religious background.
‘It feels like a death of the prematured heart’ , she said finally, adding to the fact that it was her who forced my love interest out of me and ended up rejecting it.
‘Let me think about it and pray about it”, she finally said. Exasperated and emotionally drained from the conversation, all I could say was 2 words
Thank you!
And so this is how my love life has been, in case you wanted to know whether I even had a romantic life!
