I wrote my first ‘public’ opinionated piece on pornography here. If you read the comments relating to the article, you would have probably gone with ‘What the heck are you thinking man?’
I know this, because those were the same words I used as I critiqued my own work before setting off to write this piece. I’m not going to even dive and talk about that article because, frankly I was obviously naive and immature when I wrote that and I now know better the detrimental effects of porn.
As a growing young man who is deeply rooted (at least most of the time) on his catholic faith, I found that the Church did have an answer to sex and all the elements attached to it. I once attended a conference which talked about sex and the catholich church.Some of you may remember it as I blogged about it sometime back. It was enlightening as I was seeing the church’s stance on sex for the first time. No more ‘what does this christian contemporary writer’ think crap. This was the hard truth about sex from the Pope himself.
Although I blogged about how the conference changed my life, and brought about my 2nd conversion, sad to say, I gave into temptation within weeks after that conference.
My problem I concluded was simply because I did not internalize it, both from heart and mind. The problem with me is that for me to believe something, especially if it revolves around something intangible and personnel, I need both my mind and my heart. If I believe with my mind, I feel the words are dead to me. If I believe with my heart, I feel there is no meaning to what I’m doing (i.e – doing for the sake of doing without reason).
For this reason I found it hard to believe in the Theology of the body, Pope John Paul’s answer to the world on human sexuality and marriage. I felt I lacked either the intellectual will to understand it, or somehow I didn’t have the grace to internalize it in my heart. Either way it sucked and I didn’t care much about it.
Until I discovered the relationship between faith and reasoning. And who again wrote about faith and reason? JP II himself. It is this teaching by the Holy Father that made me believe again in some of the church’s teachings…
more on that later.
Note : Yes I do realize that I didnt really talk about sex in this article… but it’ll be coming… patience
