Humbling Experiences…

June 5th, 2010 The author

The last couple of weeks, though it may have been quiet on my blog, have actually been the most thought provoking moments in my life. Ever since I joined my new project, things have been… well rather hectic, so much so I have kinda lost my footing in life. The hectic pace, the adrenaline rush which I have had almost night after night as I burnt midnight oil completing work assignments have left me exhasperated, and also made me wonder.

These experiences over the last couple of weeks have allowed me to really take a good look at myself – both my professional life and also my personal life, and boy have those two areas taken a strong beating over the last couple of weeks.

Well, beating is abit too harsh I should say, but definitely these experiences have had a profound (not necessarily pleasant though!) impact on my life. For the first time, I actually took time to reflect on myself, and that’s something really worth the time, a valuable experiences because you learn so much about how far you have come, the mistakes you have made, and what you can do to be a better person or employee the next time around.

But yes, the experience is painful, and humbling if more than anything. But uncannily , I do welcome the suffering and the pain, despite wallowing in all my complaints and exhasperations, pleading with God when the storms will end and also cajoling my soul to just wait it out and peserve. 

I take lots of comfort though, in knowing that God actually sees me through those sufferings. The other day I was just reflecting on this verse, and it bought a sort of comfort and assurance to my heart:

God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength but with your testing he will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it

Can I hear an AMEN to that?

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Gotta live like we’re really living!

May 12th, 2010 The author

Yes I am still very much alive (to the dismay of sum I would believe ), its just that April has been such a busy month for me. Heh, it’s always busy when you’re in my shoes, it’s either work, family, or ministry. But I do enjoy the “hectic” life to a certain degree, simply because I like being active. I like working on something, whether it’s work, or my church ministry stuff, I like getting involved – in a way I’m living like I’m REALLY living! (heh to borrow the line from from Mr. Kris Allen )
Anyway my brother is FINALLY married, woot! Actually it all happened so fast ; just earlier last year, he was courting his now wife, and bam, within 18 months, he has already tied the knot! Pretty fast if you asked me but I suppose that’s what happens when you really trust God and put your hope in His hands. I am really glad for him and I really do like my sis in law too! She’s really awesome and cool to hang out with. Never actually thought I would warm up to her so easily but I am sure glad I did. I think the one thing I really do like about her would probably be that she smiles alot ; reminds me alot like myself, I love the cheerfulness in people, and it’s really great to have someone like her around!

Work is carrying on ; I recently jumped to a new project, which…well I guess I am gonna be honest and say ‘sucks’ cuz there’s just so much to learn and read up. I know I know, probably 5 months down the road, I would be blogging about how much I love my project or at least somewhere along those lines, for now, I am just awwfully glad that I have a wonderful project supervisor (no I don’t think she reads my blog thankyouverymuch!) and a great project manager. I really love the team, especially the team spirit that they have – always willing to help out each other. My PM is just great – I can just casually sit down with him and just ask him anything about the project without feeling stupid or scared! I love it! I love the fact he treats me like a proper consultant too (even though I am almost due for promotion now) ; I love the liberty of being able to plan my own approach and going to my supervisor/manager when I need help. This is the best way for me to work!

Oh well, despite all the busyness, I feel really blessed.  Good job, family is doing well, I love my church ministry and the work we do there – so yeah what’s really NOT to feel blessed about?

P/s – Even in my difficulties the reason I am optimistic is because I CHOOSE to do so. Always remember in life, nothing is forced upon you, it’s how you react to it that makes all the difference. So CHOOSE your day and live like you’re REALLY living!

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My dog ate Part 2…and I am moving on

February 11th, 2010 The author

I like writing in parts.  Writing in parts relieves me because I can ramble one super long post and just cut it into small parts. However I do have one habit when it comes to doing this : I don’t finish my parts at times… this being one of the case.

I’m tempted to write about my November and December experiences…but I think I shall not. New stories for new posts I guess

Anyway January was so far quite an interesting month. I finally got to go to Sarawak, but this was no cuti-cuti Malaysia. Actually had some work to do there, but it was definitely a pleasant experience.  Didn’t get to see much of Bintulu, but from my little personal experience there, it’s definitely another chinaman town! Reminded me of Penang in that sense!

But I guess the highlight for January would be having my buddy from Canada actually come down and visit me.  It was actually a highly anticipated event for me, but I gotta admit, was a little tired toward the end. Maybe because with the whole travelling thing (I had just returned from Sarawak the previous week) and catching up with work during the weak…yeah i guess at the end of the 3rd day, I was just exhausted. But it was nevertheless still wonderful to see my friend after nearly 4 years!

Another major highlight would be my ministry retreat which we had at the end of January. It was really a wonderful and blessed retreat I should say. I guess the one thing I really learnt from the retreat was that God doesn’t need heroes. Too often we are so caught up with our ownselves and running things according to OUR own abilities, strategies and capabilities till we forget the Lord completely. And the irony is we’re doing it for Him! Anyway more thoughts on that on my new blog : http://thecatholiclife.wordpress.com. Yeap finally decided to start a seperate blog for my catholic writings.

Well that’s all for now… time for prayer and sleep.

Oh and a big shutout to my buddy who joined the Franciscan order earlier this week. You can read his chronicles here

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