Back in a hotel room
All by myself...
The all-too-familiar scenario of a hotel room where a king size bed, the bright yellow lights and the wooden desk fills the ambiance of the room. As I check into my hotel room, which will be MY ROOM for the next 2 weeks, a faint thought returns to my mind...
Been there done that
My adventures as a Corporate trainer/consultant has given me the luxury of staying in resorts and hotel. I have to admit this : I do have people who are envious of this privellage, and I don't mean to blow my trumpet and prove a point - that is NOT my intention of this entry.
In fact more than anything else, I feel this sense of lonliness. Lonliness because I am all alone. Yes this time around I do have some friends and colleagues from my training program, but it feels awwfully different. Gone were the days when as a child and a teenager I used to look forward to family trips where Dad will book a hotel room and the whole family will be together in 1 room. I miss those days.
I guess Christopher McCandles was spot on when he said the following :
"Happiness Only Real When Shared"
Weddings and other things
...and they lived happily ever after
I just returned from yet another wedding last night. This will already be my second wedding in the year, the first being my brother's wedding which happened in April and this time around it was my sister-in-law's sister wedding. And in two weeks time my dad will be having his wedding, so 2 weddings in 1 month, 3 weddings in total for this year! And looking down the road for this year, I will have to attend some of my friends' weddings as well. I think all in all, this year alone I will be attending around 5 weddings!
Looking at my own sibling preparing himself for marriage made me realize that it's more than just the wedding day itself, it's more than just that fancy gown, or the attention being focus all on you. As they say, a wedding is just one day, but a marriage is a lifetime, I find that to be very true. I have encountered some people who have just looked at wedding purely from a socialistic point of view (i.e. - making a guest list of who to invite, where to have their photo shoot, what dress to buy, what should the groom wear, what the theme of the wedding should be.) and while I do try to ask them whether they have thought about the whole idea of marriage (i.e. - living with the same person for the rest of their lives and being with them through thick and thin), most just shrug and don't really give a straight answer.
Oh well, we'll see how that one works out!
For me personally, I am not ready for marriage. I thought I was, but I am definitely not ready at all. And partly maybe could be because of the obvious fact that I have not found my significant other yet, but also another part of me is still afraid of making that commitment at this point in time. I personally feel I have some more things to accomplish in my young adult life before I look into marriage. Perhaps this is why I am also shying away from relationships...
Other things
- On to other matters. I have actually made a list of stuff I would like to blog about, just random casual observations which have been stuck in my head for some time now. Lets hope I get sometime this week to materialize them!
- Speaking of this week, I will be off for my FIRST official company training for 2 weeks! The good news is I have heard this training is not that hard and it's pretty relaxing actually, as the objective is more to get the participants to network with one another, however the crap part is this training is in KL itself, so boohoo, no travelling plans for me!
- Hopefully I will be able to spend more time on my blog during the next couple of weeks. I have plans to change the theme of my blog and give it a more sassy feel and look. It's been a while since I tweaked anything on UncannyPhilosophy!
- My brother, who I hardly get to see will be staying with us for the next 6 months! (July - Dec 2010) as he will be posted for his practical neurosurgery training at a local hospital here. This is awesome news for us all! I am definitely looking forward to having him with us!
- I have been hooked on this new podcast called In Between Sundays. I really love the show and I guess the main reason behind my devotion to it is because I really love seeing young adults developing an interest for their faith and actually sharing their faith experiences with others. Check them out here . The Padley brothers are really awesome! In fact I am so into this show I even ordered a t-shirt so that I can help get the word out over here at Lifeline Ministry. And yes, I have their app on my iPhone
That's all for now. More stuff coming up soon so stay tune
Humbling Experiences…
The last couple of weeks, though it may have been quiet on my blog, have actually been the most thought provoking moments in my life. Ever since I joined my new project, things have been... well rather hectic, so much so I have kinda lost my footing in life. The hectic pace, the adrenaline rush which I have had almost night after night as I burnt midnight oil completing work assignments have left me exhasperated, and also made me wonder.
These experiences over the last couple of weeks have allowed me to really take a good look at myself - both my professional life and also my personal life, and boy have those two areas taken a strong beating over the last couple of weeks.
Well, beating is abit too harsh I should say, but definitely these experiences have had a profound (not necessarily pleasant though!) impact on my life. For the first time, I actually took time to reflect on myself, and that's something really worth the time, a valuable experiences because you learn so much about how far you have come, the mistakes you have made, and what you can do to be a better person or employee the next time around.
But yes, the experience is painful, and humbling if more than anything. But uncannily , I do welcome the suffering and the pain, despite wallowing in all my complaints and exhasperations, pleading with God when the storms will end and also cajoling my soul to just wait it out and peserve.
I take lots of comfort though, in knowing that God actually sees me through those sufferings. The other day I was just reflecting on this verse, and it bought a sort of comfort and assurance to my heart:
God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength but with your testing he will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it
Can I hear an AMEN to that?
